Lyrics

He just want to shine today
Yah
My young boy on the grind today
Yah, yah

I’m in a battle with my being
Staring at the ceiling as I’m fighting with my demons (Fighting with myself)
Mind foggy, land of distraction
If habits are holy this altar boys crashing (Ain’t good for my health)
These thoughts are always ringing in my head (These thoughts are always ringing in my head)
I’m down on my knees this pulpit is red

Take a tour of my ego, we go, far
Too many thoughts just squeeze right in (squeeze right in)
Feeling broken as I wrestle with my psyche (wrestle with my psyche)
It ain’t like me
Fucking bite me
Cannibalize my own ambition
Can’t come to grips with my one true mission
Angels on my shoulders are weighing me down (this shit weighing me down)
These cherubs all laugh as I’m fucking around (as I’m fucking, fucking around ya)

It doesn’t seem to matter what I try (It doesn’t matter what I try)
Feels like I’m fighting a war with a lie (I’m fighting a war with a lie)
Forces within me push back and forth (Push back and forth)
It feels like I can’t do this anymore (I can’t do this anymore)

He just want to shine today
Yah
My young boy on his grind today
Yah, yah

I hate that I’m fighting myself
Every step that I take like I’m walking through hell
The problem ain’t what I want, I need something better (I need something better than this)
But the bricks keep falling
Doesn’t matter the weather or not I knock this shit down (down, down)
Cause I’m going down with it, I just can’t kick it
Feels like I’m fighting an addiction (Feels like I’m fighting an addiction)
Getting high when I’m low that’s the vision (Hurt myself that's the, mission)
Doesn’t matter what I try, what I do
I just seep in my sorrow, I beg for attention
I’m bruised and I’m broken, I’ve learned the wrong lessons
I taught myself all of this shit I won’t quit
I’m my own worst enemy, not a friend to me
That’s alright cause I still got hope
I can push through anything
I Keep trying that’s everything (Hope, I can push through)

This shit
Fuck
See uh
I don’t know
I don’t fucking know
Ya know it takes such
It takes so much fucking time
Is this really
I don’t even know
I don’t even know where this is going
How long is, to long